I've put together a good run of late nights and heroic alcohol consumption and now I feel tired. It's like a big wave picked me up and carried me along and now it s broken and I'm in a different condition, subject to the usual human weakness again, weird these things eh.
I think Jack is right. You need an awareness of the demonic forces, lust, greed, envy, wrath etc and how they can overwhelm flimsy moral 'convictions' and standards of behaviour. You need to be able to distinguish demonic energy and wicked delicious force of it.
The pop science/psychology understanding of dopamine hits and reward system hacking is interesting to me. People have come to understand that short term rewards preclude long term achievement and are trying to find ways to get off that hamster wheel of looped time. Binge remorse binge remorse
What we e learned then is that if you grow up being sodomised by priests and beaten by nuns you will come to understand sin as just part of a control system designed to subjugate you but if you grew up in modernity in the permissive society you end up feeling the loss of the concept of sin and...