luka

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What it gives you, though, despite this pulling of the rug away from certainties isn't uncertainty.

It gives you a sense of clarity.

This time around that was mostly through what it forced me confront my repulsion towards.

yeah it's all real too. except when it's tricking you. but usually it's all completely real.
 

Mr. Tea

Let's Talk About Ceps
Just thought that was interesting. Maybe a glimpse of that childlike perspective psychedelics give you, where you no longer take the world for granted.
There's serious research suggesting that small children - below, say, about five or six, I think - are effectively 'tripping' all the time. Not in the sense of seeing crazy coloured patterns or having synaesthesia, but in the sense of freely-associating ideas that aren't forced into established routines of stereotypical thought, pattern-recognition and category-filling, and in having little or no ego. (OK, that's an oversimplification since toddlers are typically enormously narcissistic, which is impossible without any ego at all, but it's a much softer and more pliable ego than is found in adults, with no clear boundary between it and the outside world. At any rate, before the age at which children develop self-consciousness).
 

Corpsey

bandz ahoy
yeah it's all real too. except when it's tricking you. but usually it's all completely real.

What it feels like is that all the usual convulsions and prevarications of my mind are a false signal that I've tuned out.

I suddenly feel quite confident about what I actually believe and serenely slap down the handwringing inner beta cuck.
 

Corpsey

bandz ahoy
I'm worried now about being callous and offensive...

Anyone got a spare 2 hours to watch this and tell us what it says?

 

sus

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LOL, did an lsd equivalent one of these at berghain one nye and looked down the stairs at the cloak room line and all these giant s&m leather bound guys were taking off their outdoor clothes and were wearing studded straps and leather g strings. When they started to walk up the stairs I was convinced it was some kind of LOTR ogre invasion. Didn't last much longer after that. Went to get my coat, left the exit, had a dodgy zip at the time so I was basically wrestling with my jacket for what felt like forever in front of the whole line, attracting huge laughs all the way down. Somehow this didn't phase me too bad and I gave up on the jacket for now. Tried to get a taxi to my Airbnb, couldn't remember if it was 52 or 152 and got the driver to drive back and forth like 5 times until he got sick of me and kicked me out in the middle of a busy intersection. At this point my field of vision was basically everything I was trying to focus on turning to confetti and fluttering up into the air. Nothing was solid, just clusters of colorful fragments shooting upwards and then floating back down. Finally recognised the way to my street and had the classic 'it keeps getting longer' sensation, felt like 30min to what should have been 5. Finally turn onto my street, still barely able to focus and could not find my door. After 15mins of trying around the area I was pretty certain it was, and I think it had an angel as a door knocker or something else memorable, I gave up and decided to lay down on the doormat of a randomly picked door. At some point a girl taps me on the shoulder and asks if I'm alright and if I needed help, I said 'yes I live at a place near the kaiser supermarket and I can't find it.' She points 200 meters down the road and asks if I meant that kaisers, and I'm like yes! And it turns out I was laying in the doormat of the door right next to mine. Finally get inside and it's warm and snug and laugh about it all. Somehow even in the most intense moments I didn't feel too much acid style fear. Not in a rush to try it again.

oh man, you were fucked up!
 

sus

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Yeah it's interesting how much we navigate the world through time, you mess that up and who knows
 

Simon silverdollarcircle

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Ha I've done some further reading and it seems like it's a really common one. I was welcomed by Ganesha, the gatekeeper and remover of obstacles. Didn't know anything about Ganesha until I got to hang out with him last night
 

Simon silverdollarcircle

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And do you feel more free, unobstructed?
I feel fucking great today, which doesn't really make sense cos I should be feeling terribly hungover.

I do feel like a load has been lifted, yeah.

I'm also left with a pretty certain sense that there was some thing *there* in the trip, something real. Something that I could see again and that others have seen.

It makes me think I will take it a lot more seriously next time I do it. Obviously last night we were on the lagers so I just thought it'd be a laugh but now I'm like, actually I should engage with this properly rather than just be pissed up LAD about it
 
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