The first day at school is intimidating, terrifying, but the process of finding a place for yourself, as the unfamiliar becomes homely can be magical. I like watching new people find their feet.
It's not really like the first day of school though. I loved the first day of school cos everyone starts off on a blank slate. I was lying to a few people about my name and life because I could. It's more like the first day of school if you transfer, because the cliques are already established, you're a few steps behind. That's why they set up clubs and societies (in depth threads)
everyone is luka
Ego is all about difference. The concept of othering is interesting here. There’s a lot of talk of othering in social justice and woke rhetoric. The irony in it being an accusation is thats a form of othering in itself, like differentiation isn’t a fundamental aspect of creating meaning and how we relate to one other. I think there’s value in realising it’s something that we constantly do in all our interactions
this is what i wanted to talk about in the caveh zahedi thread which was shamefully ignored,
i remember a kathleen hanna interview ages ago where she says how these grubby confessional healing efforts of that whole scene had the unintended consequence of people making zines about how secretly racist they were
sometimes you have to shut up
And two groups of people ask us to uncover this inner racist. Anti-racists ask us to do this as a consciousness raising exercise, so as we can get right down to the roots of this reaction-formation and cut them out, and racists ask us to do this, so we can discover that the liberal attitudes are merely skin deep, that in the core of our being we are tribal.
The former tells us that our inner racist is socially constructed while the latter would have us believe that it is natural and being natural it is futile and self defeating to try and change it.
common view is that it’s constant work and vigilance, concepts like privilege-checking and the interrogation you describe are now quite embedded.
One of the things I was talking about is the way in which this eternal vigilance can backfire, or be perverted, or have unintended consequences. About the drawbacks of setting up this policeman in the head.
And just to stave off any misunderstanding I'm not suggesting that unconscious bias does not exist and I'm not saying we shouldn't try and root it out on a personal and social level. To give an example, a few decades back some female teachers, who identified themselves as feminists, placed cameras in their classrooms and upon analysing the footage found that they had been giving vastly more time and attention to the boys than the girls. That is a significant finding with significant real world consequences.
I think it's a necessary stage. The danger in getting stuck at that stage of development is what the vampire castle essay was kinda about