Self help

[shiels]

You have to forego anything cool or exclusive. You have to work against the impulse to make yourself out as special, total inclusivity, universal... anyone can do this! There aren’t any secrets! and at the same time justify your authority

 

[luka]

hows your skin and eyes Shiels? how about your teeth? your accent might work against you, its quite flinty and obdurate but on the page that wont matter.

 

[shiels]

Psoriasis but not too much on the face. Sharp incisors which I’ll need to get filed down for a more wholesome inviting smile. I have a bit of a cold stare that I’ll need to work on softening

 

[luka]

softening the gaze is definitely a big one. DMT helped me with that. i took some photos i was really pleased with a few years back where i started to have exactly the right look, but ive hardened again since. my teeth are mental though.

 

[yyaldrin]

have you tried some of the tips and tricks in this thread on the french shiels?

 

[luka]

if you grow up sensitive and artistic in a hardman place like me and shiels then you learn to make your eyes hard as a defence and a disguise. its very hard to undo that

 

[shiels]

We hold a lot of tension and shame in the face. Tell a lot of lies with it and over time there’s a trace of all that. Psychedelic experiences can flush some of that away so you radiate your inner feelings directly through the face clear and true, but it only lasts a while, until you start managing the world with your face again, lying through it, and the mask muscle memory clogs the channel again

 

[luka]

yeah exactly. thats the problem. the solution is to take DMT every day, or at least most days. i havent had any for years though so the old corruptions are showing again.

 

[shiels]

I experienced what it feels like to be on the end of my own cold hard gaze. That sadistic look you described. Looking at the world expectantly, Wanting, scrutinising. Not enough! It manifested as a mask in front of my own face. Then it broke away and a gaze of pure acceptance broke through and I started to cry

 

[luka]

this is my guru. you should study her.

 

[Mr. Tea]

A white robe.

E45 cream and smooth palms that have never done a proper day's graft, ever.

Toe rings.

A cat called Jung.

A teepee, complete with dream-catchers, finger bell chimes and a harem of previously itinerant young women who you're secretly dosing daily with various psychedelic and dissociative drugs to keep them compliant and malleable. A few of them are heavily pregnant with your children, so you make those ones do any/all communal plantation work to show the others you're not to be trifled with.

Chlamydia, undiagnosed.

Narcissistic personality disorder, diagnosed, but you refuse any inter-muscular antipsychotic medication injections from the shrink in order to embrace and scry the seething inner-life sphere, aka know thyself first.

A.k.a. "Doc" "Bhagavan" Antle:

 

[shiels]

One thing you have to master is the sales pitch that’s not a sales pitch, asking for the money but it’s not about the money ... finance and spirituality are always an awkward mix

 

[Leo]

watch videos of some protestant christian pastors preaching in their US megachurches, they have no qualms about asking for money, it's the whole prosperity gospel thing.

https://www.vox.com/identities/2017...steen-believes-prayer-can-make-you-rich-trump

 

[luka]

 

[shiels]

My current obsession is this guy, Tom Smyth who’s becoming a minor celebrity in Belfast. He temporary leases blocks of apartments in cities around UK and rents them to tasteless people on business conferences, to him this is gods work, and his wisdom must be shared. And to me he is a gift from God - way beyond what I’d consider believable as a comedy character. He’s a mix between Johnny Adair (the funniest of the loyalist paramilitaries), David Brent and Tony Robbins.The UDA discovering the Power Of Now. He always wears an aggressively striped Brian Rose like suit that pops with the pre cancerous tan and shockingly blue teeth

He’s been caught out by the organised crime agency and I’d wager he’s money laundering. Very dodgy. But what’s notable is that even despite his idiocy, the effect still works… the platitudes delivered in that deep voice with the frenzied self-belief still do something, gives me a lot of energy. In a way I love him.

 

[luka]

That's how I feel about zyzz. A total moron but I get infected with his fervour

 

[shiels]

Proper enlightened aren’t we. We can draw inspiration from idiots. But it’s not condescension, not entirely. He has something I don’t have and there’s conduction and possibly a very strange respect

 

[luka]

Proper enlightened aren’t we. We can draw inspiration from idiots. But it’s not condescension, not entirely. He has something I don’t have and there’s conduction and possibly a very strange respect

It's not condescension at all. No way.

 

[shiels]

I’m a total success and positivity magnet. I’m a man that makes things that happen. Everything I touch turns to gold. Im a total health and fitness magnet

 

[shiels]

A health and fitness magnet