How have you changed?

DannyL

Wild Horses
Which is probably good for my relationship as well which means I can play stuff without my gf wanting to go into the other room.

 

version

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The most notable changes for me have been drinking more and being more decisive. I used to agonise over trivial things like choosing a film to watch whereas now I cba pissing about and just choose something.
 

luka

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The most notable changes for me have been drinking more and being more decisive. I used to agonise over trivial things like choosing a film to watch whereas now I cba pissing about and just choose something.
What should I watch tonight? 70s preferably
 

IdleRich

IdleRich
I'm on some pretty strong meds. Blunts all emotion.
Is that an improvement for you? What meds are you on if you don't mind me asking? Got a friend who has just gone an SSRI type thing I think (not prozac).
Lots of people I know are getting depressed or divorced or attacking their housemates or whatever cos of lockdown. Difficult times.
 

DLaurent

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Is that an improvement for you? What meds are you on if you don't mind me asking? Got a friend who has just gone an SSRI type thing I think (not prozac).
Lots of people I know are getting depressed or divorced or attacking their housemates or whatever cos of lockdown. Difficult times.

It is in a way. I got diagnosed as Delusional about 2 years ago, long story. I'm now on Aripiprazole, an anti-psychotic. It's cured the depression I used to have but can't buzz of anything other than gloomy films now, don't get dopamine rushes from music anymore. It's a better antidepressant for me though than when I tried the SSRI Fluoxetine about 10 years ago for a few months if anything.
 

DannyL

Wild Horses
Is that an improvement for you? What meds are you on if you don't mind me asking? Got a friend who has just gone an SSRI type thing I think (not prozac).
Lots of people I know are getting depressed or divorced or attacking their housemates or whatever cos of lockdown. Difficult times.
Listening to that Sophie song I posted in the other thread really cut me up today. I think there's some reservoirs of grief that are currently off the radar, all mixed up with other life stuff. Lockdown, a growing family, missed opportunities, career stress, juxtaposed against that tragedy.
 
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DannyL

Wild Horses
We watched Taking of the Pelham 123 a while back. My gf had never seen it, I was jealous. Wish I could erase my memory so I could see it fresh. Pretty much a perfect film.
 

IdleRich

IdleRich
It is in a way. I got diagnosed as Delusional about 2 years ago, long story. I'm now on Aripiprazole, an anti-psychotic. It's cured the depression I used to have but can't buzz of anything other than gloomy films now, don't get dopamine rushes from music anymore. It's a better antidepressant for me though than when I tried the SSRI Fluoxetine about 10 years ago for a few months if anything.
That sounds tough mate, good luck with it. I guess at least you have the gloomy films, strange that they of all things should work.
 

DLaurent

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That sounds tough mate, good luck with it. I guess at least you have the gloomy films, strange that they of all things should work.
Cheers mate. It's the nihilism of film noir that I really got into. No way out type films as I didn't think I was delusional, my psychiatrist tells me that's a classic symptom of it all though.

I thought it was being trolled by the security services. When I was finally arrested for making malicious communications to an online newspaper, the warrant for my arrest came from JTRIG.
 

DLaurent

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What's JTRIG? Is that like a private security firm or something?

The police told me it's basically MI5. But Wiki states it's an arm of GCHQ. I was only told it was JTRIG after I was arrested. Sounds loopy but they can operate with private firms like online newspapers to do Man in The Middle type attacks on people. I'd describe them as a modern day Stasi.
 
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