How have you changed?

Woebot

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It is in a way. I got diagnosed as Delusional about 2 years ago, long story. I'm now on Aripiprazole, an anti-psychotic. It's cured the depression I used to have but can't buzz of anything other than gloomy films now, don't get dopamine rushes from music anymore. It's a better antidepressant for me though than when I tried the SSRI Fluoxetine about 10 years ago for a few months if anything.
aripiprazole is supposed to be the rolls royce of anti-psychotic meds
 

Woebot

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Mail Online are not MI5 themselves but they are so intertwined with government and the security servies they might as well be. Half of their journalists brag about being 'above silks' (judges) and boozing with police chiefs and politicians. So basically MI5 can create a story, and Mail Online has license to troll you for months about it. To me, there's no chance I imagined it. To my psychiatrist, I suffer from Delusional Disorder.
i'm sure you know about this but...

coincidence has a way of magnifying when one goes up into "the self" - synchronicities as jung termed them.

in howl allen ginsberg calls it "the starry dynamo in the machinery of night".

it's as though the signal is concentrated and messages layer on top of one another.

coming across what one thinks as a coincidence is the surest way of noticing that one is elevated onto that plane - and a sure signal to concentrate on more concrete and grounded objective stuff. get outdoors as much as one can.

i don't think this is "not real" it is, though, a subjective experience (one complicated by browser cookies recognising one's habits, online echo chambers, and advertisers manipulating one's preferences)
 
Really shite at the minute isnt it. Lots of people I know really struggling. You have us @other_life ! we can do much more than take the piss out of your favourite music
 

luka

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I said some nice things about Japan yesterday. That was good. Then Dlaurent chipped in to say his favourite lager is Ashai.
 

luka

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We did a thing where everyone tried to remember songs that had the word 'train' in the title. I did 'Midnight Train to Georgia' by Gladys Knight and The Pips.
 

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I'm not sure I've changed. Was already working remotely. Was always on my computer too much. Circumstances have changed a bit—the scenery, the socializing, my partner's professional life—but things are steady eddy here. I feel a bit of ennui and listlessness now, but it's a workday. Come Wednesday, when I can read my books and explore the backwoods of Lac Courte d'Oreilles I'll be OK I think.
 

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Crypto has probably been more emotionally taxing for me than lockdown honestly. I don't like working at a crypto place, constant fomo. Everyone's becoming a millionaire and losing it all on a regular rotation. It just makes people anxious, gives people regrets, very few come out with real money.
 

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But the sense of possibility, missed opportunities—everyone has it, whether they're playing or not. An emotional poison in that sense. You've gotta get squared away, make a decision, live with it. Avoiding the decision is making a decision, you're just not comfortable with it, it's even worse.
 
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luka

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what restrictions are you under? Limburger says life in small town Texas is the same as always. Everything is open and you can do whatever you want.
 

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Eh more or less. My guess is Limburger is slightly exaggerating but maybe it's different down there. We're maybe 35% blue 65% red. So it's a mix.

Major chains, corporate stores/offices etc all have nation-wide policies aimed at preventing lawsuits, keeping employees safe, etc. Those are all mask-only: gas stations, grocery stores. Enforcement, however, is more lax than in California; even where masks are mandatory they're sometimes missing.

Small mom'n'pop owned stores are about half closed, half open. The open bars and stuff are sometimes relatively happening, 70% capacity, no one in masks.
 

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No lockdowns yet though, things are still open, but the town is relatively empty & sleepy, and most people wear masks indoors.
 
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