this is what Gurdjieff would call "self-remembering":
"Self-consciousnes is the moment when a man is aware both of himself and of his machine. We have it in flashes, but only in flashes.There are moments when you become aware not only of what you are doing but also of yourself doing it.You see both ‘I ’and the ‘here’ of 'I am here’ – both the anger and the ‘I’ that is angry. Call this self-remembering, if you like. Now when you are fully and always aware of the ‘I’ and what it is doing, you become conscious of yourself."
"You do not remember yourselves. You do not feel yourselves, you are not conscious of yourselves.’‘
“To know you are angry when you are angry.”
"Gurdjieff gave the name of “self-remembering” to the central state of conscious atention in which the higher force that is available within the human structure makes contact with the functions of thought, feeling and body. The individual “remembers,” as it were, who and what he really is and is meant to be, over and above his ordinary sense of identity. This conscious atention is not a function of the mind but is the active conscious force which all our functions of thought, feeling and movement can begin to obey as the “inner master.” Consistent with the knowledge behind many contemplative traditions of the world, the practice of the Gurdjieff Work places its chief emphasis on preparing our inner world to receive this higher attention, which can open us to an inconceivably finer energy of love and understanding."