luka

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i microdosed some acid for lunch today and it helped a bit. made me feel a bit more solid and substantial and warm blooded. hopefully wont interfere with my sleep.
 

luka

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i bit later id read a book eg scoop by evelyn waugh and realise i hadnt understood any of it. come to the end and youre going, eh, what,
 

luka

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i was buying off someone who tested positive for covid. going to his estate and getting a bag off him whiles eyes behind the mask are all haggard and horrified. really felt for him. anti-vaxxer of course. but after a while i thought, this is a bit foolhardy isnt it you should probaby not go and visit someone who has covid
 

catalog

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Weed dealers are always strange whoever they are unless it's your friend who you ask to get some for you
 

luka

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i used to do this on a regular basis but fortunately this one is my first proper one i think since 2018. i dont really understand them or what they mean
 

luka

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but that thread 'wheres luka' would basically just get updated everytime this weird thing happened to me. it becomes almost impossible to keep up communications with the outside world. easy to organise weed though. but everything else becomes impossible and your life starts to disintergrate as a result. but on the other hand theres something quite nice about it. its neat. youve got everything you need. you dont even need to eat really. lots of tea and coffee though.
 

luka

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i microdosed some acid for lunch today and it helped a bit. made me feel a bit more solid and substantial and warm blooded. hopefully wont interfere with my sleep.
it defintely has interfered with my sleep. im definitely not asleep. otherwise pretty useful remedy. i recommend it. first time ive tried it actually. never successfully microdosed before.
 

luka

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ive never tried valium in these circumstances but i doubt its as useful. the good thing about this is it makes you feel more human and present as well as happier and more comfortable
 

Clinamenic

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ive not been ill no ive just been in a very strange state of irreality and disassociation. and sleeping at strange hours. weed is just really bad for me basically. unfortunately booze is really bad for me too and i was smoking weed becqasue i wasnt drinking. weird few weeks. at the start not even reading literally doing nothing. on the bed everyday smoke, zone out, pass out, wake up, smoke, zone out, pass out, wake up, smoke etc all seemed really pointless even at the time but its hard to stop becasue its the stopping that is uncomfortable and destabilising.
Have you tried actually meditating, i.e. tuning beyond reality?
 

Clinamenic

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I'm only getting started really, relative to where I could be in a few years, and I would wholly recommend it.
 

Clinamenic

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Fire needs fuel, anxiety needs phenomena.

edit; really, instead of "anxiety" I should have said pathos, pathos qua suffering.
 

luka

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Have you tried actually meditating, i.e. tuning beyond reality?
yeah. im not very good at it. ive given up now. i never really made any perceptible improvement. when i used to smoke weed i considered that meditation. smoke your first one in the morning and wait for that shift to come over you and the world. suddenly the birds start singing and the clouds start moving across the sky.
 
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