luka
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why are they against some people and try to destroy them Gus?
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linebaugh
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Im your only friend
WashYourHands
Cat Malogen
Which varietals if I could ask (not dopamine related)? Ease of script access was eye-opening your side of the pond. Pre oxy explosion, then its birth. Number of supply domains was surreal, kratom beginning to lurk but for bliss not much beat diamorphine scripts. Clean, accurate dosing, nice earner too, but digi markets blew the doors off fentanyl volumes
Think there’s a def psychedelic haze with strong opiates too, a taboo heavy realm. Got 30ml day script of morphine over a period recently, just a short glow to drop the whole 30ml to get a reminder. Didn’t feel flawed or sinful because of the physical pain prescribed for
You’re only looking at about ten Our Fathers as penance if theft, deception, fraud, robbery with violence and/or all these are absent. Provide your youth to the local confessional booth, they love flaws
sus
Moderator
It's varied over the years. Morphine for a bit in college (random chance, stumbled upon a large amount getting dealer-dumped to leave the business; was a friend/student or wouldn't have trusted). Had a bad dependence for about three months, to the point I'd wake up 4am withdrawing have to redose. Then went cold turkey, partly out of an adventurer's spirit—I'd heard H withdrawals were about as bad as it gets, seen the depictions in e.g. Trainspotting of hallucinations. Well, didn't get any visual or auditory distortion, but the emotional distortion, the altered perception of the world, very severe. This speaks to Luka's thread about Factory Settings, actually. All the sudden I thought my whole world was falling apart, for the life of me I can't say why, but the smallest thing would set me off, a hellish three works, I thought maybe I'd never be happy again, and then maybe 1-2 months of turbulence afterwards, going on runs, eating chocolate, anything to give me anything, anything to get me to bed. Hell but I learned a lot about how colored your perception of things are by brain chems.
But things have been more sustainable the half-decade since. Small doses of tramadol pretty regularly, tramadol being an odd opiate. Hits a strange mix of receptors I think. Can be very stimulating. Helps me believe in myself. Etc. Haven't ever raised my (let's say, rolling weekly average) dose, and have tapered off a few times, find that 7 days of weaning gets me to ground-level without any bumps. So I'm not too concerned, things feel managed, but sometimes I wonder why I need it to begin with.
Suppose I had a short poppyseed period in there, when you could still find unwashed seeds in the States. I've seen gas station kratom like you say, and there are some kava bars in Brooklyn, but I've never messed with scripts/trying to get them. Don't have it constitutionally in me I don't think, going into a doctor and selling them a story. Too sincere for my own good.
sus
Moderator
Listened to this constantly during that first w/d period. Didn't know any Bright Eyes at all, still don't, not sure how I found it, maybe someone mentioned it on a Reddit thread about w/ds.
Stumble 'round the neighboorhod, nothing to do.
You're always looking for something
To sniff smoke or swallow.
Calling over next door, see what they've got.
But you would settle for anything
And your parents notice your thinning face,
All the weight you've lost,
All the weight you're losing.
You said "I'm done feeling like a skeleton,
No more sleep walking dead."
You're going to wake from this coma.
You're going to crawl from this bed you've made.
Stumble 'round the neighboorhod, nothing to do.
You're always looking for something
To sniff smoke or swallow.
Calling over next door, see what they've got.
But you would settle for anything
And your parents notice your thinning face,
All the weight you've lost,
All the weight you're losing.
You said "I'm done feeling like a skeleton,
No more sleep walking dead."
You're going to wake from this coma.
You're going to crawl from this bed you've made.
linebaugh
Well-known member
bright eyes is one the god fathers of modern indie music. To tie it back to drug use I had a friend who was maybe 100 pounds if she had a heavy coat on and would take these dabs that would make her nearly vomit and writhe around on the floor and then after the whole display she'd ask you 'want one?' She listened to bright eyes exclusively for awhile
sus
Moderator
Bright Eyes and Death Cab were always a bit too emo and sadboi for me. I was a sadboi but not that level of sadboi. A part-time sadboi. I had jock sports to attend to.
Luka is strategically withholding all reactions from me today, even though I've been producing good content the last 48 hours. It's part of his psychological warfare program. However, this program is rendered impotent by my knowledge of it, so the joke is on him.
Luka is strategically withholding all reactions from me today, even though I've been producing good content the last 48 hours. It's part of his psychological warfare program. However, this program is rendered impotent by my knowledge of it, so the joke is on him.
linebaugh
Well-known member
he does this to me sometimes as well. seemingly at random. very effective destabilization strategy
sus
Moderator
Yes but now that we have identified it with certainty, and stand in solidarity, confirming each other's uncertain impressions, it is impossible to destabilize us.
Clinamenic
Binary & Tweed
The efficacy of such programs is precluded entirely if you convey an unflinching sense of superiority, or as Luka once aptly described it from the receiving end, if you "loftily ignore" it.
sus
Moderator
I cannot answer the paradox of the tree in the empty forest, but I can vouch with certainty: an excellent post is excellent, even if it is never liked or heart-eyed. Time will testify to our lasting influence. The whims of contemporary response are a poor proxy for what will matter to coming eras. Indeed, you may, like myself, have had such an experience—coming across a passed-over gem in some forgotten oughts thread, wondering how it could have been passed over.
Look how Luka moves now to further destabilize our insights by claiming he is merely "busy," while we are "paranoid" (a classic authoritarian maneuver to break up dissent—by labeling it "conspiracy.") And yet I have seen him readily replying and reacting to posts scattered between my own which are far less offensive, no offense to those posts authors. The pattern is clear; protestation is futile.
woops
is not like other people
No he really has been at work all day.