that was sad. barty tried to but he had a moralistic reaction to all the bumming.
my dad told me all motivations were of a base nature and that you had to embrace that fact or flounder around doing nothing. this was very good advice.Horrible to think that when it comes down to it I'm probably forcing myself to read clever books because of self esteem issues
it will stick and you will find your way back. all it asks of you is that you obey The Teachings. that is to say, become vegetarian, quit your job and become a humble street poet.I had another revelation from acid about reading, again it's not stuck though
I realised I'd been reading for the sake of reading, unlike in the old pure days when I read to become a more godlike person possessed of divine knowledge