bloody miserable

paolo

Mechanical phantoms
You can get away with drinking on SSRIs even though they say you shouldn't. From personal experience I'd say that drugs are best avoided (just say no etc) and it's nice to hear that you and e/y are doing well :)

I stopped taking my pills in July (Efexor). I'd been on them since 1999. Not always easy but I'm glad I did it, like riding a bike with the stabilisers off but with my mood :cool:
 

Corpsey

bandz ahoy
Just had my first Citalopram capsule (of 28). I was going to live-blog the effects but I understand that I probably won't feel anything much for at least a fortnight (except maybe nausea), so I'd better report back then.
 

Corpsey

bandz ahoy
Looks like I was wrong! Had to take the day off work today (which is actually bad because I'm a temp and therefore don't get paid) because I hardly slept last night for nausea and felt nauseous in the morning too. I now feel a bit better, but I have to take the second tablet in a few hours. The pharmacist I spoke to today said this is normal, I hope it doesn't last too long though cos I need that scrilla.
 

Mr. Tea

Let's Talk About Ceps
Oh man, that sucks. Can your doc give you anything for the nausea? You can get anti-nausea tablets OTC but I expect you could get a script for some much better ones if you asked.
 

Corpsey

bandz ahoy
I've been taking it a couple of weeks now and now I don't really feel nausea at all. I'd say the side effects have more or less disappeared. I haven't felt a huge difference since I started taking them but supposedly it takes a month or so to kick in. And I have noticed that I'm tending less to wallow in depressing thoughts, which is what they're supposed to do. Could be a placebo, could be something other than the tablets - but I'm going to keep taking them for at least another month. Watching that program about ecstacy on C4 the other night made me think there must be something to these pills. You wonder, of course, if your capacity for ruminative, intelligent thought will be scuppered along with the depression, but given a lot of that ruminative thought for me revolves exclusively around me and my problems, perhaps it won't be such a big loss to civilisation :D
 

woops

is not like other people
Just posting in the hope that all veterans of this thread are doing well.

And maybe secretly hoping that the sentiment'll bounce back on me!
 

paolo

Mechanical phantoms
Does that mean that you're not doing so well and that you hope that if we're OK then you'll feel better? Because I am pretty good these days
 

Lichen

Well-known member
i've just hit 40

my missus and i have had a really difficult year. one of our three young children was diagnosed with a potentially terminal cancer. a year later and he's doing brilliantly. should be OK, but we won't know for five years.

i now worry about death and dying a lot. i see a news article about cancer or dementia and go into a tailspin that takes hours to pull out of. i've long believed that life was possible because we (rightly and happily) delude ourselves about our mortality, now i bang up against it constantly.

also with the season of his diagnosis approaching i think i'm experiencing a kind of PTSD, albeit a mild one.

much of the time i'm ok, but i think now i'm 40 i should take real care of mind and body so i think it's the couch for me.
 

woops

is not like other people
That's right Paolo, trying to use the thread as some sort of Karma machine, only to realise I don't have real problems after all...
 

Lichen

Well-known member
i'm not trying to out-problem people and there's probably a trauma at the of some sort at the root of many mental problems - your trauma, your parents', their parents'.

the language around mine is very potent, that's all.

my proposed response: yoga or similar, less booze more exercise. maybe some couch.
 

Local Authority

bitch city
Interesting thread, its come as a relief to see this actually.

Been suffering from depression for a while now, not exactly sure how long. I wouldn't say I'm a depressed person by any means, I haven't felt like this since I was in my teens. Normally I'm quite confident and out-going but recently I've slipped into myself in a way uncharacteristic of me and I feel an inability, almost a pointlessness, in communicating with other people. There's a sense of futility that permeates everything, I'm somewhat involved within the London music scene and as much as I'd like to carry on contributing I feel hopeless in attempting. Before I could brush it aside but now its taking a serious detrimental effect on who I am.

Its difficult to pinpoint any exact moment it started, although I suspect it may involve the use of drugs. Both my parents are also bi-polar so that probably plays a part but I haven't been to the doctor to find out.

Thanks for any help.
 

paolo

Mechanical phantoms
I can't really offer too much in the way of help but you should definitely see a doctor. Hope you feel better soon (this goes for the rest of yous as well)

:)
 

baboon2004

Darned cockwombles.
Sorry to hear this. What you're saying is interesting, and I can identify with it quite a bit - I've slipped into similar periods when communication feels all but impossible. You will come out of it though, I guarantee it- as you say, it's uncharacteristic of who you really are. Depression is especially nasty because it gives the false impression that there's no hope.

I think you can't overstate the impact of parental mental illness (in the broad sense, not just stuff like depression and bipolar disorder which have been pathologised); not in a genetic sense, but in the sense that the way your parents respond to situations environmentally have such a strong impact upon a child's responses (assuming you grow up with them, of course). Takes time to work through that.

Don't give up the music, persist with it and it'll get easier again.

Second what Paolo says too - go to the doctor. Pills are not the answer, but they can make you feel sane enough to work out an answer.

Interesting thread, its come as a relief to see this actually.

Been suffering from depression for a while now, not exactly sure how long. I wouldn't say I'm a depressed person by any means, I haven't felt like this since I was in my teens. Normally I'm quite confident and out-going but recently I've slipped into myself in a way uncharacteristic of me and I feel an inability, almost a pointlessness, in communicating with other people. There's a sense of futility that permeates everything, I'm somewhat involved within the London music scene and as much as I'd like to carry on contributing I feel hopeless in attempting. Before I could brush it aside but now its taking a serious detrimental effect on who I am.

Its difficult to pinpoint any exact moment it started, although I suspect it may involve the use of drugs. Both my parents are also bi-polar so that probably plays a part but I haven't been to the doctor to find out.

Thanks for any help.
 
Interesting thread, its come as a relief to see this actually.

Been suffering from depression for a while now, not exactly sure how long. I wouldn't say I'm a depressed person by any means, I haven't felt like this since I was in my teens. Normally I'm quite confident and out-going but recently I've slipped into myself in a way uncharacteristic of me and I feel an inability, almost a pointlessness, in communicating with other people. There's a sense of futility that permeates everything, I'm somewhat involved within the London music scene and as much as I'd like to carry on contributing I feel hopeless in attempting. Before I could brush it aside but now its taking a serious detrimental effect on who I am.

Its difficult to pinpoint any exact moment it started, although I suspect it may involve the use of drugs. Both my parents are also bi-polar so that probably plays a part but I haven't been to the doctor to find out.

Thanks for any help.

Do you have a bicycle? For me, cycling transformed my life, I was such a misery before. That and having a child, but it was the good vibes from cycling that brought the real life-changer about. Now we've separated and my kid lives elsewhere (though I see him regularly) but whenever I feel mortal or blue, I get on my bike and ride it off. Works, resets everything. There needs to be a study done on the effect of cycling vs anti-depressants.

Not being at all flippant, it worked and continues to work for me.
 
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