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A Liniment's Evil Work
I just ain't that smart, but apparently @IdleRich and maybe one of two other people find my plotless, inane rambling stories and thoughts amusing so I'll continue here instead of commandeering someone's thread.
The first thing that came to mind a few minutes ago:
WRONG, STILL
As Flavor Flav would say, he should get a smack for that!
As as I listened to ABBA's Dancing Queen again for the first time in ages, they clearly lay it out: See that girl, see that scene, digging the dancing queen. - You're a teaser, you turn 'em on - Leave 'em burning and then your gone.
Since this thread will be the very epitome of self-indulgent as it is, I'd like to mostly skip over sob story/sad sack shit (especially since I still carry and think about a lot of that stuff as it is),
except to post a couple of probable recaps and then mostly move on:
only in my case it was age 29, not third grade
some random ranting about it by some random rando somewhere:
"It is caused by having a damaged/deformed Corpus Callosum (neurons which connect and relay information between the two hemispheres of your brain).
It basically means you have a high verbal IQ but in every other way you are retarded. It's often mistaken/misdiagnosed as autism but it's basically inverted Autism. You are able to speak clearly and fluently but are in a severe deficit for things like math/science/music/art/everything else. This actually makes it worse because while autists usually have marketable talents, people with NVLD are basically screwed.
Another common issue with people who have this form of brain damage is that when they were younger they often did very well in school and were constantly praised for it. But as they got older and their disability began to manifest, they slowly fell behind their peers. This often leads to a complete collapse of ego and a lifetime of self hatred and low self esteem as things only get worse with age. Many simply withdraw from society all together, since they will never be able to compete and people often treat them poorly.
The high verbal IQ is often more of a hindrance than a help as well since being verbose often times makes people overestimate you and when they see how clumsy and clueless you actually are they recoil thinking you were just faking being smart.
Unlike your common variety of idiot who is often so stupid that he doesn't realize how bad he has it, the one type of intelligence that NVLD sufferers actually posses allows them to realize how badly they are being shafted. This breeds anger and endless frustration. Many people with NVLD also have extreme tempers due to all the pent up frustration and loneliness in their lives.
I wouldn't wish this shit on my worst enemy."
theme song (obviously for a different reason if you haven't figured that out):
now moving on:
There was a year I spent away from gville during which time a sort of transformation/metamorphosis took place to such a degree that some people barely recognized me when I got back, and if not quite that, they were at least shook, or did some hard double takes.
I'll leave it there for now except to maybe say if the phrases "from zero to hero" and the variations on the "a man with nothing to lose.." were meant for someone, it could be like that, but, I dunno, that's probably a bit silly and overly dramatic.
don't know if i'll get back to this today or not...
The first thing that came to mind a few minutes ago:
WRONG, STILL
As Flavor Flav would say, he should get a smack for that!
As as I listened to ABBA's Dancing Queen again for the first time in ages, they clearly lay it out: See that girl, see that scene, digging the dancing queen. - You're a teaser, you turn 'em on - Leave 'em burning and then your gone.
Since this thread will be the very epitome of self-indulgent as it is, I'd like to mostly skip over sob story/sad sack shit (especially since I still carry and think about a lot of that stuff as it is),
except to post a couple of probable recaps and then mostly move on:
only in my case it was age 29, not third grade
some random ranting about it by some random rando somewhere:
"It is caused by having a damaged/deformed Corpus Callosum (neurons which connect and relay information between the two hemispheres of your brain).
It basically means you have a high verbal IQ but in every other way you are retarded. It's often mistaken/misdiagnosed as autism but it's basically inverted Autism. You are able to speak clearly and fluently but are in a severe deficit for things like math/science/music/art/everything else. This actually makes it worse because while autists usually have marketable talents, people with NVLD are basically screwed.
Another common issue with people who have this form of brain damage is that when they were younger they often did very well in school and were constantly praised for it. But as they got older and their disability began to manifest, they slowly fell behind their peers. This often leads to a complete collapse of ego and a lifetime of self hatred and low self esteem as things only get worse with age. Many simply withdraw from society all together, since they will never be able to compete and people often treat them poorly.
The high verbal IQ is often more of a hindrance than a help as well since being verbose often times makes people overestimate you and when they see how clumsy and clueless you actually are they recoil thinking you were just faking being smart.
Unlike your common variety of idiot who is often so stupid that he doesn't realize how bad he has it, the one type of intelligence that NVLD sufferers actually posses allows them to realize how badly they are being shafted. This breeds anger and endless frustration. Many people with NVLD also have extreme tempers due to all the pent up frustration and loneliness in their lives.
I wouldn't wish this shit on my worst enemy."
theme song (obviously for a different reason if you haven't figured that out):
now moving on:
There was a year I spent away from gville during which time a sort of transformation/metamorphosis took place to such a degree that some people barely recognized me when I got back, and if not quite that, they were at least shook, or did some hard double takes.
I'll leave it there for now except to maybe say if the phrases "from zero to hero" and the variations on the "a man with nothing to lose.." were meant for someone, it could be like that, but, I dunno, that's probably a bit silly and overly dramatic.
don't know if i'll get back to this today or not...
