feel embaressed even making a post about this, but i finally unfollowed her and removed her from my followers.... i dont really know what the breaking point really was, but i guess i knew i just had to let go at some point and tell myself that she aint the one and to find someone new because there are options....
admittedly, i will say, a large part of why i took so long to do this is because i was afraid shed contact me after i did it and i wouldnt know how to confidently respond, i was afraid id be too weak at even just a confrontation over text because i like her and wish things couldve gone differently.... i know i brought this dilemma up in an old post and sus said that i had to have conviction and hold my ground and take any power from her by saying no or whatever sus said to respond, and yes, but maybe i can also just simply not respond... i honestly hope i never hear from her again.... its best this way.....