Your Character Flaws

[luka]

he resents you becasue of the advantages you have enjoyed. i actually empathsise with him here becasue i too feel massive resentment of successful people.

 

[luka]

i guess people like me and limburger know we will never be taken seriously, no matter what we do. and that is a bitter pill to swallow.

 

[luka]

success is a social circle, its not points based, you cant pass an exam. you have to belong. and no one wants a chubby texan hanging around wearing a russell athletic sweatshirt

 

[sus]

I've had it very easy it's true I think it's my blue eyes, liberal arts is dominated by women and I am naturally quite charming, like Chris Evans, everyone says so

 

[sus]

I believe it was only a few months ago that we established however that Linebaugh was "cool" and I will never have the "it" factor, your favor changes veyr easily Luka

 

[sus]

He doesn't have any real opinions he keeps them all hidden he's a mischief maker

 

[luka]

uh, i dunno, you enjoy worldly success which is i guess not synomous with 'cool on dissensus'. limburger is a bad loser and everyone in the real world hates him and wants him dead. i can relate to that.

 

[luka]

fat jim turned up in my office today and i was writing poems for these two vacous morons and they were telling me how they dive with orcas and bkue whales and have passionate sex with girls half their age

 

[luka]

and you think, how does this happen?

 

[luka]

what is success? why does life conform to some peoples expectations in this way?

 

[luka]

i remember reynolds saying to me and barty well when i left oxford i went to melody maker magazine and said, i wish to write for your publication, and they said, sure, when can you start.

 

[luka]

i ask for a job in a supermarket and they wont give me an interview. its like living in a whole different universe with a different set of game rules.

 

[luka]

i am sort of obsessed with it. who are these people? and when do we get to torture them to death?

 

[sus]

i remember reynolds saying to me and barty well when i left oxford i went to melody maker magazine and said, i wish to write for your publication, and they said, sure, when can you start.

I know you're mostly kidding but FWIW this hasn't been remotely my experienced and I was, as you recall, chased out of the New York scene, never had a publication accept a pitch in my entire life, etc

 

[sus]

Maybe times have changed IDK but turning out to be a solid programmer + transitioning has been my only real stroke of luck since graduating half a decade ago

 

[sus]

I do hear stories like Simon's all the time though I wonder, was it just a different generation, or am I just missing the bus?

And it's not even just folks from good colleges, just in general

 

[sus]

Anyway I don't buy this act a bit I think you've lived exactly as you've wanted to live and I don't believe anything's stood in the way of things you really wanted

 

[sus]

Is it not so?

 

[luka]

im not sure. i really dont know.

 

[sus]

They wouldn't even let me write an undergrad thesis. I submitted three attempts.